You’ve haunted my mind
You’re the unavoidable plague
I have desired.
My skin tingles with excitement
Hearing the sound of your voice
Like the sound of distant shores.
Distance has kept us apart
But memories of you still linger
Every time I see someone smile.
Let me tell you that I’m a ruined soul
I’m the piece of crap everyone throws away
When the thing has outlasted its value.
You’re my angel, my hope
My only connection from insanity
From the past I used to walk on to.
I hope you’re well for here I am
Still searching for light from the darkness
That has kept me from reaching out to you.
My feelings go numb
Every time I shut myself out
Of miserable thinking.
I need escape
I need release
I need to feel again
That happiness that you gave me
A long time ago.
You gave it to me like a drug
and I got addicted
Until I got shallow
And all the more hollow
Angry yet empty.
Things are not as it used to be
Only no hope for second chances
For you or me
Only sadness in the silence
And myself lost in darkness.