I want to swim far
But I am a prey chained
In a world of power.
Peel away the darkness in my heart,
Growing with dread and hate
Of its innocence.
I can only look from afar,
Knowing it may be too late
To escape this fate.
I have buckets of tears,
For the lonely.
I have few pennies,
For the empty.
I have a beating heart
For the hateful.
I have blankets
For the broken.
I try and try
To erase the void
But I feel so small,
And so vulnerable.
Can a hopeless have hope?
Can I last until dawn?
For this night is endless
For a life already shattered.
You are the sum of my demons
The light in my shadows
A beautiful distraction,
A dream I never had.
You are the words behind my silence,
My compass in the night
My comfort from weariness,
A star I can never hold.
I should have grabbed the chance
To utter words unspoken,
But my lips were sealed,
And I ran away.
Forgive my awkwardness,
For my heart is made of paper
And I have to bottle it up
So it won’t leak.
People tell me I still look the same,
Years have gone by like the passing wind
I was drifting through life, surviving.
The past came, flashing before my eyes
And all this time, I am living a lie.
Your words were sharp as the knife
Peeling off the layers of myself I have outgrown,
Forcing me to evolve, to grow.
I ‘ve been hiding in the comfort of childhood
And I just knew it was time to let go,
And face another chapter.
God give me the strength to be strong
With hope and peace in a turbulent world.
I am afraid of the shadows
But I want to move forward
To face the darkness in my heart,
To find my light again,this time with you.
Stab me, like there’s no tomorrow
I can handle the pain.
You cut me with your shitty words
But I can always lick my wounds.
You shoot with dagger looks
But I have my bullet-proof.
If life was pain and it was you,
I’ll gladly embrace it.
I was the masochist in your sadist state,
You the Master and I like the Slave.
I chose you when you chose me,
I love you more when you hurt me.
I was a living dead before,
Then you came and awakened my soul.