Shots
Posted: March 9, 2016 Filed under: Lyrics | Tags: life, love, pain, past, regret Leave a comment
Mask
Posted: October 4, 2015 Filed under: Free Verse | Tags: depression, pain, self-hatred, self-pity Leave a commentI hate the face I see
In the mirror when I wake up.
I hate the way those lips curl
For doing something wrong.
I hate the way that body moves
Like a crippled man with crutches.
I hate the way her mind writes
Depressing thoughts everyday.
I hate the way she sings
Believing she’s a soul siren.
I hate the way she shows kindness
Because she’s always betrayed.
I hate the fact that she’s weak
Because she is unable to appreciate herself.
I hate the fact that she slouches her back
Because she feels poor in a crowd.
Mostly I hate the fact that she loves
Because she’s always in pain.
Melancholia
Posted: September 17, 2015 Filed under: Uncategorized | Tags: pain, poem Leave a commentThere’s a lump in my throat
Every time I close my eyes
Waiting in the silence
With the memories still fresh
Like the passing yesterday.
I wonder why I liked sunsets
I wonder why I liked roses
Forgetting how those tiny thorns
Can inflict pain and sadness.
Maybe I just liked the pain-
Makes me feel alive
Even after some pieces of me got lost
And made me a living dead.
Where were those happy memories
When you needed them?
Happiness is fleeting like a second
Yet pain can stay for a long long time
Until no more tears are left for self-loathing
Because I didn’t walk the straight path
You so carefully built and chose for me
You said I’d regret it but I still left
And made friends with pain.
I’m sorry for getting myself caught
With the disappointment you feel
Every single day that my soul
Lurked in the shadows.
Forgive this crazy fool
For believing a foolish dream
For putting around masks
And ill-fitting costumes
For how can I deserve this life
When I am only able to live
And offer love through pain?
Sunrise
Posted: August 25, 2015 Filed under: Free Verse | Tags: letting go, pain Leave a commentHere I am again,
Sitting and waiting
Thoughts drifting
with the cold wind.
Hearing the loud waves
Like sirens singing
Echoing the memories
From a distance.
Remembering a blank face
Along with a closed door
and silent aches
Like it was yesterday.
Raindrops fell
But only for a moment
As the love was gone
As soon as it began.
Finally comes the sun
Breaking the dawn
Lighting the shadows
and I left.