I stopped by the net
And tried to search your name
I was hoping I’d feel great
But I only felt dismay.
I wanted to reach out to you
You with your genuine smiles and laughter
Hoping the bond was still tight
Before you were in the spotlight.
Thousands of pictures of you appeared
with thousands of words attached to them
That I could not recognize the same smile and laughter
That did not reach your amber eyes.
You did not tell me the world had eaten you
and robbed you of our memories
The only thing I was holding on to
That is living the simple life with you.
I’m sitting in the sand
I just don’t know
What I ought to do next
Because I’m bored like hell.
Or was it just me?
I pushed people away
Now they seem so far away.
So I’m sitting here
Closing my tired eyes
And shutting my ears
Just hearing the waves of the past.
Can I be gone like the wind?
But I feel like the wind
Though not as free to roam
As freedom seems to be my downfall.
Aha, I contradict myself
But what more have I to lose
When there was nothing more to choose
So instead I just tied my shoes.
I wiped these silent tears
And breathe the air like water
As I got engulfed with the ocean
Of my despair and loneliness.
Soon I found myself ready to stand
Without holding a helping hand
Because I got to be the only one left
With vanishing footsteps in the sand.