MelancholiaPosted: September 17, 2015
There’s a lump in my throat
Every time I close my eyes
Waiting in the silence
With the memories still fresh
Like the passing yesterday.
I wonder why I liked sunsets
I wonder why I liked roses
Forgetting how those tiny thorns
Can inflict pain and sadness.
Maybe I just liked the pain-
Makes me feel alive
Even after some pieces of me got lost
And made me a living dead.
Where were those happy memories
When you needed them?
Happiness is fleeting like a second
Yet pain can stay for a long long time
Until no more tears are left for self-loathing
Because I didn’t walk the straight path
You so carefully built and chose for me
You said I’d regret it but I still left
And made friends with pain.
I’m sorry for getting myself caught
With the disappointment you feel
Every single day that my soul
Lurked in the shadows.
Forgive this crazy fool
For believing a foolish dream
For putting around masks
And ill-fitting costumes
For how can I deserve this life
When I am only able to live
And offer love through pain?