Mother

People tell me I look like you

You, who bore me on a balsamic moon.

You said life was no easy for you

So you try to amend the past with me.

You guided me through and through

But kept haunting secrets only you knew.

You would suddenly hug me at night

That I had to breathe because it was tight.

When I had to leave for my dreams

Your eyes looked so painful and in tears.

You wanted me to stay in the nest

But I was stubborn that I still went away.

I said I wanted to live the world

But you said the world would eat my heart.

Remembering those days still hurt

Whenever you would send me your letters.

And that I realize that you’re right

But it was just too late to turn back time.

Time when I was still in your arms

With the peace I never found with the world.

How can such a simple single word

Mean so much to my whole existence?

I pray time to be merciful to me

So I can finally utter the words ‘forgive me.’