First Love

I dreaded the day I confessed

Because right there you got me rejected

But you were just an idea from the start

But you left my soul scarred.

You saved me from the dark

You were my beacon of light

Hope from my weary mind

I lost everything and died.

Ah, the sweetness of rejection haunts me

I learned that you’re different from me

I got worse from all the heartaches

But you never forget first loves.

Lie

You lie and you lie and you lie

It hurts even when I try

I am grown and I have known

How difficult life is

But it is what it is.

I take the meds to calm down

But why do I always frown?

I’ve been through the dark most times

I don’t know how I have survived.

My mind is blank

Wanting to shut down

I am back to where I am

I did not mean to hurt you

I just wanted to stay away from you.

Well

I want to swim far

But I am a prey chained

In a world of power.

Peel away the darkness in my heart,

Growing with dread and hate

Of its innocence.

I can only look from afar,

Knowing it may be too late

To escape this fate.

Tunnel

People tell me I still look the same,

Years have gone by like the passing wind

I was drifting through life, surviving.

The past came, flashing before my eyes

And all this time, I am living a lie.

Your words were sharp as the knife

Peeling off the layers of myself I have outgrown,

Forcing me to evolve,  to grow.

I ‘ve been hiding in the comfort of childhood

And I just knew it was time to let go,

And face another chapter.

God give me the strength to be strong

With hope and peace in a turbulent world.

I am afraid of the shadows

But I want to move forward

To face the darkness in my heart,

To find my light again,this time with you.